K

K is my old “state” of my mind.

She always wear a white dress, have messy hair and doesn't like to show emotion in general.

When I was 11 years old I felt like I was growing up too fast, people started to say that I was a woman and had to take responsibility. But for me was too much.

K has problem containing her rage, also she has problem understanding jokes and emotions.

K’s first phase (to 2011 till 2014) was basically stay with Rander’s and his friends company. Almost every school days for five hours of lessons, in the afternoon when was time to do homework and also when was night. At the beginning she was scared of the things that Rander makes watch her, but in less than a year she started not feeling any emotions anymore.

K’s second phase (to 2015 till 2017) had a very important features for everything that happened to my mind.

K fell in love with a trans-male person: Dor.

He had a strong personality and ideals, but he didn't have the mentality to understand what was happening with K.

After he decided to break up with K, she has gone in a spiral of confusion and doubting, because she didn't know at the moment why he did that.

In those moments of confusion K started to hate even more humanity.

Unfortunately, when people saw this kinda of behavior they start to think you're a bad person. But K didn't have the lucidity to understand and also the control to menage all the emotions, because she didn't experience them before.

While K had hallucinations and panic attacks, the main reason why she was scared was because of Mary-ann.